Being a dark skin girl in this society is not easy at all. I have been bullied and dragged down! People have made me feel like I wasn’t enough! I will never forget the pain I felt when I looked in the mirror. I didn’t see my beauty at all, I saw an ugly dark girl with Kylie Jenner lips. The negative words hurt me so bad! It’s like I can hear the words repeating in my head!
Sometimes it is my own friends that will make fun of me. How can I call you my friend, if you talk behind my back? If I call you my friend, I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You should trust who you call a “friend,” they aren’t supposed to bring you down and cause more pain. Friends are supposed to uplift you and support you. Sometimes I think I need friends, but I DON’T. I was born alone, and I will leave this earth alone.
Certain people come into your life to teach you a lesson. ‘’You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them’’ (Maya Angelou). My mentor always told me, “stop checking on people that aren’t checking on you.” This is something I deal with in my everyday life, because I’m always the one reaching out to my friends, but they never reach out to me first.
Another random quote I came across was, ‘’Don’t be surprised if your growth makes your circle smaller.” Wow! Once I stopped chasing after people, they showed me their true colors. I was always that person that will re-paint them.
At school, if I didn’t greet my friends, they would walk past me like I was a ghost. It made me think of this quote, “When someone hands you the scissors, don’t regret to cut them off.” That same day at school I was lonely. I was hurt and upset because I miss those jokes we had. I miss how we danced in the hallway.
I was glad I removed these toxic people from my life. I felt like I broke out of the box. I started to surround myself with mentors, and that was the best thing I could have done! It felt better than surrounding myself with students because the adults had already learned so many life lessons. They already knew what I was going through. They taught me how to have self-confidence and how to not let other people walk over me.